The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.
Galatians 5:17
If The Truth (Jesus) will set me free, then lies (Satan) will bring me into bondage.
25 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my (Jesus’) sake shall find it.
Matthew 16:25
I was conformed to this world. I was earthly-minded. And, I was trying so hard to preserve and save this wrong, sinful way of life. I didn’t know it until God began to show me what I was doing, what I was involved in.
I’m a sensitive guy. For far too long, I was sensitive to the wrong things. I was sensitive to shame due to my health, I was sensitive to what others thought of me, to the fear of man, to fearing not having enough money, to wanting nice vacations, to pride, to religious pride, to wanting the world, to “care,” to handling things in my own strength, to sudden fear, to wanting to be accepted and to be like everyone else around me. Being sensitive to these things was making me weak, robbing me of all that God had for me and taking me deeper and deeper into bondage. And, I didn’t really even know it because I thought it was normal to react this way.
This was my life. It was what I knew and was familiar with. And, I was doing all I could to keep my life this way. Crazy, right?
What God wanted for me was for me to be sensitive to Him, to His will, to His Word, to be Heavenly-minded. It was the only way I’d ever be able to be healthy as the sensitive person God made me. Being sensitive to God, to His ways, truth and life would set me free in ways I could not conceive before, and make me strong in Him. I would find His peace, love, rest and joy by giving Him my attention, by turning my sensitivity over to Him and His will. This was the life God had in Mind for me. He said if I would lose my “earthly” life by turning from the way I thought I should live as a sensitive guy and focus on Him instead, He would save my life and I would truly find Life, I would truly experience His Living Water and no longer thirst for the wrong things.
Thanking and praising God in all things,
Mark